drowning

I need everything in life to just PAUSE for a while.

This paper that I can't make progress on should go away.

Ancient Greek needs to stop adding new material.

Creative Writing needs to stop assigning poems to write.

Boy/relationship problems need to disappear.

I am ready to be home. I haven't been home since August 21. I will have been gone for over three months by Thanksgiving Break time. I am not normally homesick, and I am not really SICK, I am just starting to miss it some, especially since I was gone all summer. Maybe it would be different if I lived in my own place, but living in a dorm is not the same as having a home. 

Life has been crazy the past few days. Yesterday was a really bad day, and today has been better but a continual stretch for me to set my mind. Everything seems to be surrounding me, and it's like I am watching everything pass by, but I am separated from everything. I am on the outside looking in. And that's not a pleasant feeling, especially when it involves my emotions. I have put them constantly on hold the past week, and that's not healthy, but I feel numb inside and I don't really know how to get rid of it.

Basically, I need God. I really need Him.