molasses

I want to write something beautiful, poignant. Something that makes people really think. Something that is enjoyable to read and, most of all, something that reflects my heart.

How do I do that, though? I haven't completely figured out how to open the innermost parts of my heart in my writing. Not like writing in a journal when I write what is going on deep inside, but write something that others can read that can bring them closer to Christ. I want to write things that encourage others. And it's in there - it spills out more like molasses, starting out slow and gradually becoming more fluid as more is poured out. It happens with camp as I share my life, all of who I am with girls throughout the summer. But during the year I become less accustomed to doing that, so I am back to the slow drip.

The quote off to the side describes why I write. I love what it does on paper, but mostly I love what it does to me inside. Writing sorts out my thoughts and helps me figure out the roots of problems or what God is actually doing. But, like molasses, it's hard to get started at first. And lately, I haven't had much to share.

So I sit here, waiting for the inspiration and the words to overflow from my heart to my fingertips. I don't know how much longer I will be waiting. But I look forward to the day when I learn how to be completely vulnerable in a way that brings others closer to Christ. And myself.